The first two lines...

I was playing with my little one when I got up and all of a sudden felt dizzy and a wave of nausea overcame me.  A familiar nausea... I had a pregnancy test stashed in my 'red-days box' for times like these.  My period was already a week late but I hadn't even considered the possibility of...

I popped my little one in the bath to wash of all the paint she had managed to eat & smear in her hair.  Peed in a cup, took the test out of it's plastic wrapper.  I don't even look at the instructions anymore, I know how these test work.  Their all the same.  Pulled off off the pink cap and submerged the absorbent tip in the cup for about 10 seconds.  Took it out, put the cap back on and put it flat on the back of the toilet.  I glanced at it briefly while it was soaking up what it needed and I saw only one line appear - the control line.  Cool, no worries then, I knew I wasn't pregnant.

I carried on washing Lo and after the water had turned blue from the paint and I was sure 5 minutes had past I looked at the test again, and did a double take.  There it was.  Two lines.  No mistaking it.  How on earth?...oh dear!

I probably picked up my cellphone 10 times considering either phoning or sms'ing the father of my first and now probably second child.  Why am I so nervous?  I think I'm still just in shock!  Maybe I should just ask what time he'll be coming home...no, no...he'll suspect something.  I want to tell him in person without him thinking anything before I see him, so I leave him to his day & hope something doesn't hold him up at the office so he won't come home later than normal.

When he walks in through the door at his normal time, he scoops up Lo in his arms as she comes crawling towards him with a big smile on her cute round face "da-da da-da" & kisses me 'hallo'.  My tummy does a flip & I almost just burst out saying 'I'm pregnant!' but I don't and the evening carries on by it's normal routine.  Once he's put Lo to bed & we can have dinner & some quiet time together he walks into the living room and says 'what's wrong?'  dammit, he knows me so well.  "I'll talk to you now when you come and sit down."
Him "You haven't started your period?"
I shake my head
Him "Did you take a test?"
I nod my head
"Are you pregnant?"
I nod my head
"Really now?"
Me: "Yes!"
He comes and sits down next to me on the couch.  "I'm sorry" was the first thing I can think to say.  It's just such an unexpected surprise.

I felt a bit bad about the first thing I said to him & how I felt when I found out at first, but during the day I had already started getting excited about the new addition to our family that was on it's way!  Dad felt the same!  He was like "why are you apologising?! No, this is exciting and happy news!"  Then his next thought was, same as mine, how on earth?  But really!  The only conclusion was that our contraceptive must have failed or at some point something must have just slipped through, because we really weren't trying to conceive again just yet.  Anyway, we'll never know, but we did decide to tell people that we weren't not trying because we always said we wanted our two to be close together.  Wow we have got so much to plan & think about now.  Growing from 3 to 4 is going to take some adjustments and big decisions for all of us.